Tuesday, January 29, 2008

MON
laz ut aft sch..
wenta amk k aft dat..
sam, selina, py & me..
bused tgt wid chanel..
nw i noe y she lyk long bus ride alone alr..
can look 4 her future bf.. blanga.. esp bus 169..
reach hm goin 11 i tink..
cant rmb..
mood was in a total shit..
i told my mum i felt like a total shit..
spendin my daes goin thru a f*kin same routine..
a cycle..
tiz is nt life..
itz a process..
im sick of it..
i wrote my atm pin on a piece of ppr..
i passed 2 her tgt wid my atm card..
i told her 2 use e money inside 2 get wadeva she wan 4 herself..
althou nt much @ least gt 4 digit..
she said im crazy..
wrk so hard den i anyhow spend e money..
i xplain 2 her..
i wrk is nt 4 e sake of money but is bcoz of my frenz, my colleagues..
i rmbed i've told her several wks b4 dat if e nxt dae im dead i asked her nt 2 cry 4 me..
nt worth it..
dun worry..
im nt sucidal..
i wun b so stupid 2 commit sucide..
derez stil many thns ive nt done yet..
human is so fragile..
we wun noe if we'll live 2 c e nxt dae..
so wat 4 kip all dose money when we cant bring dem wid us 2 e grave..
I ask her 2 buy me some beer..
rare thn ok..
coz previous tyms she ask me 2 drink i alwaes rejected her..
tiz tym is i asked 2 drink..
she recommend me 2 drink my bro's bottle of baileys..
i had baileys on e rock coz derez nth in my hse 2 go wid it..
perhaps is bcoz baileys is too milky dat i kip drinkin widout realisin dat i had dat much..
i went high & felt so hot dat i sweat lyk f*k even when im slpin..


我的心情很糟。。
简直糟透了。。


TUE
guitar in class aft sch..
wid e 2 ain..
haha..
gotta noe some stuff 1st dae knowin sum1..
nt bad..
e f*kin zharbo security wanna lock door..
she nv say anyth juz open e door stand dere & stare..
we saw her we alr start packin alr..
nb she giv e face machiam lyk we owe her $..
wenta lib..
friendster/blog hop/gossip..
haha..
hm ard 8 +??
nt sure..
4gt 2 look @ tym..
nw listenin 2 e 你是爱我的 by ah mei..
cindy sent me 1..
it has been on e repeat mode..
e lyrics makes me wanna cry sia..
my mum hear til sianz liao..
coz she'z tryna slp bside me..


tmr goin sentosa..
dunnid wrk..
i hope lao tian ye poh pi..
giv me scorchin sun 2 make me chao ta within e pathetic few hr im gonna b dere..
& let e chaota-ness stae 4 long so i wun nid 2 tann again..



i hope i can b a flowery hrt big carrot..
direct translation for hua xin da luo bo..
so i cud juz lyk another peron with a snap of finger..
there is hell lot of question marks in me..
tel me how do i find sum1 like dat gal..